When this becomes your deep experience – when this experience comes to a point of total intensity, when you have given all…. Holding back nothing – you have thrown yourself totally into the fire, the effort has become total, the inner fire is total, the sadhana is total; now existence cannot tell you that you have held anything back, all is given – that day, in that crystallization, in that state of ignited consciousness, suddenly everything is burnt to ash. All sadhana, all practices, all meditation, all renunciation – suddenly you wake up and find, “Oh! What I was seeking was already there!”
But if it could happen just by reading Ashtavakra then it would be very convenient. Is it difficult to read Ashtavakra? The sutra is so clear and simple. Remember, to understand simple things is the most difficult thing in the world. And the difficulty comes from with-in you. You hope you won’t have to do anything. It is very hard for people to accept the need to meditate.
This is the acid test – the Ashtavakra Gita. Those who hear Ash-tavakra and continue meditating have understood. Those who hear Ashtavakra and stop meditating have not understood Ashtavakra, and they lose their meditation too.
Practice, and you will find out that practice is a dead end. This is the final phase of practicing. Don’t be in too much of a hurry.
“Through the study of texts like Vedanta and the Ashtavakra Gita, I have learned…” Has anyone ever known through study? Has anyone known through memorizing texts? Has anyone ever known through learning scriptures, learning words? This is not knowing, it is information; knowing about. You can say this information is known: “What is worth attaining is already attained.” But when you realize it, everything is finished.
You were informed, you became excited, and it sprouted in greed! Your greed said, “Look, I have been meaninglessly making efforts. Ashtavakra says, ‘without doing anything,’ so I will sit without doing anything.” So you sit, doing nothing. After a while you observe, “The happening has not happened yet. Why this delay? And Ashtavakra said right now!” You sit looking at the clock, “Five seconds have passed, five minutes have passed, an hour is almost over – and Ashtavakra said immediately! Right now! There is no need for even a second to pass!” You start thinking he was lying, your trust is broken.
This is not knowing, it is information. Always remember the difference between information and knowing. Information means it is borrowed. Someone else has known, and listening to him you have become informed. This is information. Knowing is an experience. No one else can know for you; it cannot be borrowed.
I have known – your knowing will not happen from this. My knowing will be mine, your knowing will be yours. Yes, if you collect my words it will be information. Through information one can become a scholar, but not a wise man. Knowledge about wisdom can be collected, but not the liberation of wisdom. A whole system of words can be created, but not the beauty of truth. The words will imprison you more, will enslave you more. So you will find scholars very constricted. Where is the open sky? Knowing that, “What is worth attaining is already attained” – if you have known it then what is left to ask?