This meditation has three stages. In the first stage you have to do fast, intense breathing for ten minutes; you have to go on making it faster and more intense. You have to breathe in such a way that you remember nothing else – only the breathing remains. For ten minutes forget the whole world. And one who breathes vigorously will forget – only the act of breathing will be left in his consciousness. Inner and outer have to be engaged only in breathing.
The second ten minutes are of catharsis. In the second ten minutes, dancing, jumping, shouting, weeping, laughing – whatever starts coming to you, you have to do with total energy. For those of you to whom it may not come on its own…you have to begin it from your side. Whatever you can think of to do – if dancing comes, then dancing; if crying comes, then crying. And do not try, just start it.
Yesterday some friends came to me and said, “We try, but it doesn’t happen to us.” There is no need to try. For jumping, do you need to try? Just do it, don’t bother about trying. The moment you begin, the current will burst forth and it will become spontaneous. Within a day or two you will find that it starts coming on its own. Much has been suppressed, many blocked energies have accumulated in our minds – they must drop away.
New energy will be born in you. The whole body will become electrified, will begin to vibrate. To awaken this energy, for ten minutes you will be hammering with deep breathing. Kundalini energy will be awakened by it.
So in the second ten minutes you will be experimenting with dropping the madness of the mind, so that no obstacle remains in the path of the kundalini. All obstacles should drop away, and the energy of kundalini can go straight upwards. All the madness of the mind should drop away, otherwise the energy awakened by kundalini is absorbed by the madness of the mind – it enters into the madness of the mind. Hence catharsis is essential; the throwing out of all the rubbish is essential.
Then in the third stage the pure energy of kundalini which will be left behind has to be transformed into inquiry. Hence in the third stage you have to ask vigorously for ten minutes, “Who am I?”
Today is the last day, so don’t ask it quietly within yourself. For the entire ten minutes ask it with your total energy, shouting loudly. Ask it so intensely that there simply remains no space for anything else – for the existence of any thought or any world outside. Just immerse yourself in asking “Who am I?”
If someone finds it more convenient to shout in Marathi instead of Hindi, they can shout in Marathi; that is not a problem. If they find Marathi more convenient then they should shout in Marathi. Ask it in any language that is deep in your heart. You have to ask the question with total energy for ten minutes. In these thirty minutes you have to make yourself completely exhausted. Not even a little is to be kept back – for anything.
In the last ten minutes you have to wait in silence. These ten minutes of silent waiting are the real point. The thirty minutes before it are of preparation, and these ten minutes are the real thing. In these ten minutes, great peace, bliss, light and many other kinds of experiences will start happening.