The buddhas, the awakened ones, have divided life into three planes: the known, the unknown and the unknowable. The known and the unknown are not different, not much different. They belong to the same category – they are measurable. That is the world of matter. The unknowable is the world of life, consciousness, love, light, truth, godliness.
It is beautiful that you say, “What is surrender? I used to think I knew. Now it is a mystery.”
This is the beginning of real knowing, when the whole of life becomes a mystery, when you come to a state of not knowing at all – agnosia in the words of Dionysius…. Or remember the words of Socrates, “I know only one thing, that I know nothing.” Or the words of the Upanishads – the Upanishads say: The person who thinks he knows, knows not; the person who knows he knows not, knows.
To enter into the unknowable is the greatest adventure, the greatest ecstasy, but one feels afraid, one feels that one is losing something. You can lose only that which you have not got. Let me repeat: you can lose only that which you have not got. You can never lose that which you have got; there is no way to lose it, that which you have got. If your knowledge has disappeared, that simply means it was not real knowing.
Now is the beginning – athato brahman jigyasa – now begins the enquiry into God.
Surrender is the quantum leap from mind to no-mind, from ego to egolessness. And in a single step the whole journey is contained. It is not a long journey from you to God, it is a single-step journey. It is not a gradual phenomenon; it is not that slowly slowly, gradually you come to the divine. It is a quantum leap! One moment you were in darkness and the next moment all is light. All that is needed is to put the ego aside.
Zusya, the great Hassid mystic, was dying. His old uncle came to see him and said, “Zusya, have you made peace with God?”
Zusya opened his eyes, laughed, and said, “How many times have I said to you that I have never been in conflict with him, I have never fought with him – so why should I make peace with him? For what? There is no reason in it! I have always been at peace with him.”
Nobody had ever seen him praying, there was no need. Nobody had ever seen him going to the synagogue, there was no need. No one had seen him reading the scriptures, there was no need. He had done the real thing: he had put his ego aside. And the moment you put the ego aside, the curtain disappears. Godliness is not hidden, only your eyes are closed. Open your eyes!
Surrender means opening the eyes. Surrender means dropping a false idea that “I am separate from the whole.” It is a false idea, so in fact you are not dropping anything.