It is better that the children don’t see your ugly faces. If no child comes to know about these ugly faces, his life will be totally different. It will be a life of love, without jealousies, without nagging, without throwing things, because he had no chance to learn these things.
You need not feel guilty; those parents who never leave their children alone should feel guilty. Once in a while go and be with them, and then you can be as totally with them as possible. And once in a while bring them here.
You have to share me with your children. If you love me, you would like your children also to love me. Don’t leave them in anger at me; that is not right. Their love towards me will help you immensely not to feel guilty. It will help the children also to feel that it is good that you are here. They would also like to be here someday – when their educations are complete, when they are grown up and they are ready to move into life. They would like to learn more about the complexities of existence, the intricacies of life, its delights, and the art of how to achieve it.
I realized this morning when you were talking that I am a fighter, but I don’t know anything except fighting, that unfortunately I am a proud fighter – and even worse, that I love fighting. I love to stand in the face of the strongest storm and laugh. It is great joy. I don’t like to lie in the sun and melt. And yet behind my mind, my heart longs to melt. It yearns, but it never seems to have even a fighting chance. How can I salvage my being?
There is no problem in it.
If you feel you are a fighter, if you enjoy fighting, not only that, if you are proud of being a fighter – then relax. Fight totally! Then don’t fight your fighting nature. That will be let-go for you.
It is perfectly beautiful to stand before the strongest storm and laugh. Don’t feel guilty. Just try to understand one thing: when I say let-go, I don’t mean you have to change anything. I simply mean, whatever you feel you are, just allow it its totality.
Be a fighter with your whole being, and in this totality you will find the melting of the heart. That will be the reward of your being total. You do not need to do anything for it; rewards come on their own. Just be total in anything that you feel you love, that you feel proud of – just be total in it. Don’t create a split. Don’t be half and half; don’t be partial.
If you are total, one day – standing against the strongest storm, laughing – you will suddenly feel your heart melting in the sun. That will come to you as a reward.