The fourteenth saying:
Blessed is the man who has suffered; he has found life.
Look upon the living one as long as you live, lest you die and seek to see him and be unable to see.
They saw a Samaritan carrying a lamb on his way to Judea.
He said to his disciples: Why does this man carry the lamb with him?
They said to him: In order that he may kill it and eat it.
He said to them: As long as it is alive he will not eat it, but only if he has killed it and it has become a corpse.
They said: Otherwise he will not be able to do it.
He said to them: You yourselves, seek a place for yourselves in repose lest you become a corpse and be eaten.
Jesus said: Two will rest on a bed: the one will die, the one will live.
From the most ancient days, man has asked again and again why there is suffering in life. If God is the father, then why is there so much suffering? If God is love and God is compassion, then why does existence suffer? And there has not been a satisfactory answer to it. But if you understand Jesus you will understand the answer. Man suffers because there is no other way to mature, to grow. Man suffers because only through suffering can he become more aware. And awareness is the key.
Observe your own life: whenever you are comfortable, at ease, happy, awareness is lost. Then you live in a sort of sleep, then you live as if hypnotized, you live as if in a sleepwalk; you move and do things, but somnambulistically. That’s why religion disappears from your life whenever there is no suffering. Then you never go to the temple, it carries no sense for you; then you don’t pray to God, because why pray? There seems to be no reason.
Whenever there is suffering you move toward the temple, your eyes move toward God, your heart moves toward prayer. There is something hidden in suffering which makes you more aware who you are, why you are, where you are going. In a moment of suffering your awareness is intense.
Nothing can be meaningless in this world. It is a cosmos, it is not a chaos. You may not be able to understand – that’s another thing – because you know only fragments, you don’t know the whole. Your experience of life is just as if you have only one tattered page of a novel: you read it but it makes no sense because it is just a small fragment, you don’t know the whole story. Once you know the whole story, then that page will become comprehensible, then that page becomes coherent, meaningful.