The same happens with spirituality: at a certain maturity the urge arises; you are looking for God. The world is already finished; you lived it through and through, you saw it through and through. It is finished; it has no attraction, it has no meaning. Now an urge has arisen to know the meaning of existence itself. You played all the games and now you know they are games. Now no game attracts you, the world has lost its meaning – then you are mature.
Now you will need a master, and masters are always there, so there is no hurry. The master may not be in this form, in this body – another body. Forms don’t matter, bodies are irrelevant. The inner quality of the master is always the same, the same, the same. Buddha says again and again, “You can taste the sea water from anywhere, it is always salty.” Just like that, the master is always of the same taste. The taste is of awareness. And there are always masters; they will always be there, so there is no hurry.
If you are not finished with the world, if a lingering desire is there to know sex, to know what money can bring, to know what power can give you, then you are not ready. The spiritual urge is not one urge in many urges, no. When all the urges have lost their meaning, then it arises. The spiritual urge cannot exist with other urges, that’s not possible. It takes possession of your complete being, utterly. It becomes the only one desire. Only then a master can be of any help to you.
But there are teachers. They would like you to cling to them and they will cling to you, and they will create a situation in which if you escape you will always feel guilty. A master has a milieu around him in which, if you live there, you live by your own decision. If you leave, you leave by your own decision. And when you leave, a master would not like you to feel guilty about it, so he gives such a color to the situation that you feel, “This master is not a master,” or, “This master is not for us,” or “He is so contradictory that he is absurd.” He takes the whole responsibility so you don’t feel guilty. You simply go away from him, completely clean and washed of him.
That’s why I am contradictory. And when I say on purpose, that doesn’t mean that I am doing it; it is just how I am. But on purpose has a meaning in it, and the meaning is: I would not like you, whenever you leave me, to feel guilty about it. I would like to take the whole responsibility. I would like you to feel, “This man is wrong,” and that’s why you are leaving. Not that you are wrong, because if that feeling goes into your being – that you are wrong and it was not good – then it will be again destructive, a destructive seed within you.
A master never possesses you. You can be with him, you can go away, but there is no possessiveness in it. He allows you total freedom of being: with or going away. That’s what I mean: you are here, celebrate with me; whatsoever I am, share with me, but if you feel in a certain moment to go away, then turn your back and never look again towards me. Don’t think about me, and don’t feel guilty.