See the point. Allow relaxation to happen, don’t try to relax. Simply relax, don’t make it a “must.” Rest…and if you rest you will start falling into the deep abyss of your own being, and sooner or later you will reach the rock bottom of yourself. To experience that rock bottom of yourself is to be enlightened, is to be a buddha, is to be a christ.
That’s why I insist again and again it can happen any moment, just to remind you that your mind is very clever. It can deceive others, it can deceive you. Beware of the mind! It keeps you clouded, it never allows you to see things as they are.
Enlightenment is your nature, hence there is no question of learning, no question of reaching somewhere. You are already there, it has already happened. It is your very being, your very ground. It is in your every breath and in every beat of your heart.
The second question:
Why don’t I feel any surprises in my life? All seems so dull and drab.
I have given you the name Gyano: Gyano means knowledge. You are too knowledgeable, you know too much. And when one knows too much, life loses the quality of being mysterious. Then you are never surprised by anything. Your knowledge goes on supplying you all kinds of answers; even before you have asked, the answer is there, you seem to know everything. Knowing nothing you go on believing in borrowed knowledge, and slowly, slowly that borrowed knowledge hypnotizes you so much that you forget that you don’t know. You start believing in your own knowledge – and it is not your own, it is just borrowed. You may have read the Bible, the Gita, the Koran….
Krishna knew what he was talking about, but when you read you don’t know. Jesus knew what he was talking about, but when you read the Sermon on the Mount you are simply collecting, gathering words – words which are not meaningful to you at all, which cannot have any meaning because meaning comes from experience.
Jesus says: If somebody hits you on one of your cheeks, give him the other one too. You can read it, it is a simple statement. You can even try to follow it – thousands of Christians are trying to follow it.
I have heard about a Christian saint who used to talk too much about this statement. A mischievous person came and hit the saint on one cheek. Of course, true to his teaching, the saint gave him his other cheek hoping that now he would understand: “He will see how great I am, how compassionate, how considerate, how full of love!”
But the mischievous person was also a great devil; if the saint was great he was also great. He was not in any way inferior to the saint. He hit on the other cheek even harder.