When thought is not disturbing you…thoughts are like ripples on the lake; silence is like no ripples on the lake, just being…suddenly you become aware of a music that has always surrounded you. Suddenly it enters from everywhere. You are overwhelmed, you are possessed.
This is the first thing to understand. You will not be able to know truth unless you have become capable of listening to the ancient music of omkar. This music is the very heartbeat of existence, this music is the very door of existence. You will not be able to enter the temple of godliness but with this music as the bridge. Only on this music, riding on this music, will you enter him. The kingdom of God is available only to those who have become capable of listening to the eternal music.
It has been heard, I have heard it. You can hear it: nobody except yourself is barring the path, nobody is hindering. If you are missing, you are missing only on your own account. There is not a wall between you and the music; even if you feel there to be a wall it is only of your own thoughts, and even then the music goes on penetrating you. You may not listen to it, but it goes on massaging your whole being; it goes on nourishing you, it goes on giving you life, it goes on rejuvenating you. Your heart throbs in the same rhythm as the heart of the whole.
Whenever your heart falls out of line with the whole you are in trouble, you are ill. Whenever the heart is in rhythm with the whole you are healthy. Let this be the definition of health: whenever there is no conflict between you and the whole, not even a rumor of conflict, you are healthy. To be whole is to be healthy, to be whole is to be holy.
And what is the way to be holy, healthy, whole? Your heart should beat in the same rhythm as the heart of the whole; you should not fall out of line, out of step. It is a great cosmic dance, it is a great harmony. When you sit still, silent, not doing anything, meditative, prayerful, suddenly you start merging into the whole. You come closer and closer and closer and your steps are no longer heard as separate from the whole. You become part of this great symphony. Suddenly you are healthy, holy, whole.
How to come to this tuning with the whole? Why are you missing it? You are constantly in discord, you have many contradictions within you. Those contradictions go on like a tug-of-war within you, continuously, day and night, awake and asleep. You are constantly pulled into opposite directions. This tense state of affairs does not allow you to listen.
Even when you are in love you go on fighting. Even in love you don’t fall into step with the whole. Even lovers go on fighting with each other; otherwise love can become a door to the ancient music. Hence Jesus says that God is love. If you love somebody, at least drop all conflict with him, or with her – with your child, with your wife, with your brother, friend, with your master – drop! But even there, conflict continues; a subtle way of fighting continues.