Your function is not to prevent, not to be reluctant. Join your hands with whatever is happening. That’s what I mean by let-go.
Let existence cleanse you.
Allow it total power over you.
Don’t be worried that you will be destroyed, because you will be destroyed. There is no need to worry; it is absolutely certain. When things are certain there is no worry. It is only the uncertainty that creates worries.
You will be destroyed…. That which will remain undestroyed in you is your authentic self. That which is destroyed is your personality, your false self; it needs to be destroyed. You can use that destroyed part in the world because they won’t understand if you say that you are a mystery. Even your family, your wife, your children, your parents will think you have gone mad if you say, “I am a mystery.” Nobody is a mystery and only you are a mystery? – where did you lose yourself?
So as far as the outside world is concerned you are Satyadharma – not the other one; that you have to remember! This is a problem for sannyasins because they have the same names, many. You can get lost and start thinking, Who am I? And naturally, you are a mystery, but a German mystery or an Italian mystery…this much you should remember: that you are not a German mystery.
For the outside world, completely keep your old false identity, your name, your profession, your qualifications. But inside you will know that it is only utilitarian, not real, useful; useful in the society, but when you are alone you are not Satyadharma and you are not Italian or German or English.
You are not even your body.
You are not your mind.
You are just the pure mystery behind.
Now there is no way to describe it, you will have to experience it, and you are moving rightly towards that experience. Just don’t in any way knowingly out of fear hinder the process. There is no fear: only the false will die and the real will remain always and always. That is the definition of the real: That which remains.
The false is just useful. In the crowd of the world you need a name. The reality is nobody has a name, but it will be a very difficult world if everybody drops the name because it is false. Then you won’t have any address. The postman cannot find you anywhere because everybody is a mystery! You will create troubles because you are not the husband and you are not the wife and you are not the father and you are not the child – everything outside will be disturbed, will become a chaos.
Outside keep everything as it is.
Inside don’t be identified with it.