You are absolutely one with it; there is no question of even being an insider. There arises a great oneness. You suddenly see yourself in various manifestations – in the trees, in the flowers, in the clouds, in the stars. You are everywhere. The moment you disappear you are the whole existence – blossoming, flying; all the greenness, all the mountains, all the snow, all the rivers, all the oceans. You are spread everywhere. This state is the state of a buddha. This is true liberation.
So you are feeling yourself an outsider. This is good. This is the transitory period. Now you have to be alert not to fill yourself with pain and misery. Now that God is no longer there, who is going to console you?
You don’t need any consolation. Humanity has come of age. Be a man, be a woman, and stand on your own feet.
You have been crippled for millennia because of God, because of the whole priesthood. They never wanted you to be healthy and whole. Their whole profession was dependent on your misery, pain. They were the people who were covering your misery and pain and giving you hope – and hope is an empty word.
Karl Marx is right when he says religion is the hope of the hopeless. But the hope was just like a carrot hanging in front of you. You never reach it, but it is so close it feels you are going to reach – if not today then tomorrow, if not tomorrow then the day after tomorrow. The carrot is always hanging in front of you.
A Sufi story says…
A man has purchased a cow, and he was not accustomed to dealing with cows. So he was trying to drag the cow along holding the cow’s horns, and the cow was very resistant. Obviously this man was new. She wanted to go to her home, she wanted to go to her old owner.
A Sufi mystic saw it. He said to the man, “It seems you are very new; you don’t know how to deal with cows. This is not the right way.”
The man said, “What should I do? – because I am not that strong, the cow is stronger; she is dragging me with her.”
The mystic gave him some beautiful green grass, and told him, “Leave her horns. Take this grass and just move ahead of her. Keep the grass very close, but don’t allow her to eat it. As she moves towards the grass, go on moving towards your home.”
And it worked.
The cow came because the grass was so close and so green and so fresh. She forgot all about the owner; the immediate problem was how to get this grass. And it is so close, just hanging in front of your eyes. But the man went on moving slowly, the distance between the cow and the grass remained the same. And she entered into the house of the new owner, and he closed the door.
Religions have been hanging carrots in front of you. Those hopes are never fulfilled. They are hopeless, those promises are empty.