It will be extremely difficult to follow events in this regressive fashion, because normally we understand things in a forward moving, linear way. The understanding of our minds is unidirectional. To look at things in opposite order is very difficult – we are not used to such an experience; we are accustomed to moving in forward direction. With effort, however, one can understand the events of a past life by following, in sequence, the reverse order. Surely, it will be an incredible experience.
Going through memories in this reverse order will be a very amazing experience, because seeing the divorce first and then the love and then the marriage, will make it instantly clear that the divorce was inevitable – the divorce was inherent in the kind of love that happened; the divorce was the only ultimate possible outcome of the kind of marriage that took place. But at the time of that past life marriage we hadn’t the faintest idea it would eventually end in divorce. And indeed, the divorce was the ultimate flowering of that marriage. If we could see this whole thing in its entirety, then falling in love today would become a totally different thing – because now we could see the divorce in it beforehand, now we could see the enmity around the corner even before making the friendship.
The memory of the past life will completely turn this life upside down, because now you won’t be able to live the way you lived in your past life. In your previous life you felt – and the same feeling exists even now – that success and great happiness were to be found by making a fortune; so you go on and on amassing wealth. What you will see first in your previous life is your state of unhappiness before seeing how you went on amassing the wealth. This will clearly show that instead of being a source of happiness, amassing wealth led, in fact, to unhappiness – and friendship led to enmity, what was thought to be love turned into hatred, and what was considered a union resulted in separation. Then, for the first time, you will see things in their right perspective, with their entire significance. And this implication will change your life, will completely change the way you are living now – because then it will be an entirely different matter.
I have heard that a man went to a mystic and said, “I would be much obliged if you would accept me as your disciple.”
The mystic refused. The man asked why he would not make him his disciple.
The mystic replied, “In my previous birth I had disciples who later turned into enemies. I have seen the whole thing and now I know that to make disciples means to make enemies, to make friends means to sow the seeds of enmity. Now I don’t want to make any enemies, so I don’t make any friends. I have known that to be alone is enough. Drawing someone close to you is, in a way, pushing the person away from you.”