Suddenly, without saying anything to anybody…. He could not sleep the whole night. He brooded over it: he has become a slave, and they are all do-gooders. They have made you a slave because they want to do good to you and they love you…and their love became nauseating; and their well-wishing became poisonous. The whole night he brooded: what is he to do? Whether he has to continue and become part of this nonsense, or get out of it?
And blessed he is that in the morning when they had gathered and they were waiting for God to descend in him and to declare that he is now no more Krishnamurti but Lord Maitreya – Buddha has entered in him – he suddenly declined and he said, “It is all nonsense. Nobody is descending in me. I am simply Krishnamurti and I am nobody’s master. And I am not a jagatguru, not a world teacher. And I dissolve this nonsense and this organization and the whole thing that has been made around me.”
They were shocked. They could not believe it: “Has he gone mad, crazy?” They had put much hope in him, much money; it was a great investment, years of training. But it was going to be so. If he had been absolutely a dead man, then only would he have accepted it. He was alive. They could not kill his life, that aliveness exploded.
If he had been a dull, mediocre mind, maybe he would have accepted – but he has an intelligence, a tremendous awareness. He got out of it. That whole movement and the whole organized thing functioned as a positive challenge.
As far as I see, nothing can hold you. If you are alert, you will use organized religion as a challenge. If you are not alert, then organized religion or no organized religion, wherever you are you will create an imprisonment around you. You carry it around you – in your cowardice, in your fear, in your urge to be secure and comfortable.
The second question:
For the last twenty-five years I belonged to the organization of the Seventh Day Adventist church, (Saturday Sabbath). Though I am concentrating in listening to you, I have not passed the stage of conflicts. One of the conflicts has been whether Ellen G. White, the founder of the church, was the messenger of God or not.
Would you please explain it to me.
Either everybody is a messenger of God, or nobody. The whole idea that somebody is a prophet and somebody is a tirthankara and somebody is a messenger or a christ is absurd. You all come from the same source. We all come from the same root. Nobody is special. And this is what a religious man tries to live.