Feel thankful for the river because it gives you a background, it gives you an opportunity, it helps you, it cooperates with you. You can weigh yourself only through its current. You can feel yourself only because the river is going downward. The feeling that you can go upward even when the river is flowing down gives you a very different quality of confidence – you can go up-ward. Now, even if you relax and flow with the river, you know very well that you can go upward. Now, even this downward flow with the river is not a defeat. You have known something – something different from nature.
If you have glimpsed something different from nature even for a single moment, then you have known your potentiality. You may achieve it, you may not achieve it, but now you are not just part of the downward flow, the upward flow is possible. Now it will depend on you. You will be the decisive factor, not the downward current. Now there is no enmity. If the river flows downward, it is okay. You need not flow, you need not fight, you need not be in fear. You can go up.
Ultimately, there is another possibility which tantra has gone into very deeply. Tantra says there is a possibility that you flow downward with the river and still you flow upward. Then only your body is carried away. How can the river carry you away? – it can carry only the body. Tantra tried to create many downward rivers. So go into the river, feel the downward flow, flow with it, and remember constantly that you are not flowing.
I was saying that by fighting with sex you may be obsessed with sex totally. There is another possibility: even going deeply in sex, you may not be sexual at all. But that possibility opens only when your effort becomes positive. This is what I mean by positive effort against the current. It is not really against the current; it is for the consciousness. The current is being used just as an opportunity – just to weigh yourself, just to find yourself out. Just to feel the upward, the downward is needed. The more forceful the current, the more forceful will be the feeling of the upward. So use nature as an opportunity, not as an enemy. Use instincts as friends, not as enemies. They are friends. Only through your ignorance can you make them enemies. They are friends.
When someone reaches the original source – the peak of the river from where the river comes down – when one reaches the original source one is just thankful – thankful towards the river, grateful towards the river, because it is only through the river that he could achieve the source. So when someone reaches the peak of consciousness, he is thankful to every instinct because they all helped, they all created the situation, they all created the opportunity. And they were flowing in the opposite direction. So their opposite flow is not really against you; the river is not against you. You can be against the river, and if you are against the river then you will never win. The greater possibility is that you may become perverted.
So use nature to transcend it. When you see there is anger, don’t fight anger directly: weigh yourself, feel the energy, transcend the anger. Anger is there: remain silent, feel anger and feel yourself and weigh yourself – begin to flow upward. Take it as a play. Don’t be serious. Seriousness is a disease. lf you take everything negatively then you will be serious. Then everything disturbs you: “Why is there anger? Why is there greed? Why this? Why that?” Everything disturbs you, and you become serious.