To me it is. To many it may not be. But whatsoever is the best for you is luxurious for you. And I don’t say that all my sannyasins have to live in my discipline, the way I live, or the ritual of my living. No, they are free to find out their own ways. But I have found mine and I am perfectly contented with it. So it is not dull – I am enjoying it every moment.
It’s an extremely structured life – that’s what I meant.
It is not structured. It may look from the outside as if it is structured; it is not structured.
For example, I have tried to wake up at three o’clock in the morning, I have tried to wake up at four o’clock in the morning, I have tried to wake up at five o’clock in the morning, I have tried to wake up at eight o’clock in the morning – and finally I found that six suits me the best. Now, for an outsider it may look a structured life that every day I wake up at six, but to me that has been the best moment. After that, sleep becomes a headache; before that, the whole day becomes dull, sleepy. But I have found my time, exactly at six.
Now scientists say that for two hours every night you have the deepest sleep; if you wake up exactly after these two hours, you will have the most awakened day. In these two hours your temperature falls, so it can be measured from the outside, too. And I have tried that – that when does my temperature fall? It falls between four and six. And exactly at six… And this is a later thing; I had found my time long before, for thirty years I have been waking up at six. It is just recently that I found out what scientists say about these two hours, wherever in the night they happen – and to different people they happen at different times: somebody may find it at five o’clock, somebody may find it at three o’clock.
Vinoba Bhave used to wake up at three o’clock, and that became the discipline of his ashram. Everybody has to wake up three o’clock. Now, that is nonsense, that is stupid. For Vinoba it may be the right time, but all those people in Vinoba’s ashram are unnecessarily suffering. Then the whole day they feel dull, sleepy. Then Vinoba’s explanation is that you are lazy, sleepy: change your diet, your diet must be wrong; change your other habits, something must be wrong. And the only thing that is wrong is that they are waking up at the wrong time!
So to me it is not structured. I have looked for it and found the right point, the balanced point. The same with my food – I have found what suits me, how much is needed, how much keeps me in a wellbeing, and I go with it.
I am a very luxurious, lazy, comfort-loving man, and I have found everything that is needed to make me comfortable. I possess nothing – I am the poorest man in the world, in that sense. Otherwise, I am the richest, because my people have made everything available to me. It does not belong to me, it belongs to the commune, but you will not find such a commune anywhere else in the world – now, or in the whole history of man.