America is now one of the most sexually free societies in all history. America cannot fight. Fighting is part of a suppressed sex. The inner fever must be accumulated in such quantities that you begin to be violent. Suppress sex and you will be violent. That’s why so-called saints are very violent in their behavior – angry, violent – because of suppressed sex. Then that fever has to be released in some way.
In sex you are releasing a particular amount of energy. They say in one sexual act you release one hundred and twenty calories of heat – one hundred and twenty calories you release in one sexual act! It is the same if you run for one mile, fast; you will release the same amount of calories, one hundred and twenty. That’s why there is much talk about whether sex can help heart disease. It can help. It releases energy. For persons who are well fed, it helps to delay heart disease. It releases energy, but it is not a solution. It is just a temporary arrangement, just creating a leakage in your system from which energy is released every day.
When you are angry your whole body is heated, becomes feverish. The center releases energy; it comes to the periphery. Ordinarily it is cold. The periphery is cold ordinarily and the center is hot. The reverse will be the case when awareness happens to you. When you meditate, go deep inside, when you become aware of every activity, everything will take a turn, an about-turn. Your periphery will become heated – not in anger, not in sex, not in greed, not in passion. It will lose its coldness, sleepy coldness. It will become warm, alive and aware. And because this energy is released to the periphery continuously, twenty-four hours a day, then you don’t need any anger, any sex.
A buddha doesn’t need anger. It is absolutely useless for him, because the very energy system has changed. Now he is using his heat for light, but you are using your light for heat. The same fuel can be used to burn your house and the same fuel can be used to light it. The fuel is the same, but the direction changes. The inner fuel, the inner energy, becomes fire, suicidal, burns you down, and ultimately you are just ashes. In the end, when death comes nearer you, you are just ashes, everything burnt out. You used your energy not as a light but as a fire.
It becomes fire if it is concentrated into the center and only temporarily released when it is overflowing. In a sudden shock, it comes to the periphery and is released. This is a very chaotic state. You go on accumulating it inside, then it is overflowing, then one day you have to throw it.
We go on rationalizing ourselves. When you get angry, you think someone has made you angry. No, really, you were ready, you were overflowing inside. You don’t know because you are not aware. You are overflowing with a certain amount of energy which needs to be released. Someone abuses you, insults you, and you get angry, you think, “This man is creating anger in me.”