But that day she went close to Hassan and shook him. Hassan looked at her, and Rabiya said, “How long are you going to do it? I tell you, the doors are open. You need not ask him again and again, ‘When will you open the doors?’ Don’t be foolish. Enough is enough. I have heard enough of all this nonsense. The doors are open – just open your eyes and see.”
Rabiya’s statement goes far deeper than Jesus’ statement. Jesus says, “Knock, and the doors shall be opened.” Rabiya says, “Open your eyes – the doors are already open.”
And I am saying to you: God is already coming, God has come. He is standing at your doors. Open your doors, open your eyes, just open your heart.
And certainly, when divine energy showers on you, how can you feel you are worthy? Impossible! The gift is so big, as if somebody has given a Kohinoor diamond to a beggar. He cannot believe it; he will think it must be an artificial thing, or maybe somebody is kidding: “I am a beggar. Who can give me the Kohinoor diamond? Impossible! Maybe I am dreaming, maybe I have gone mad. This is an ordinary stone – I am projecting.”
That’s what happens to everybody when God comes in. But don’t become focused on it, become focused on God’s overflowing energy.
God is overflowing energy, God is overflowing joy. God is sat chit ananda – overflowing truth, overflowing consciousness, overflowing bliss. Just whenever you are ready, receptive, it is going to happen. It could have happened at any time; no time was the wrong time, no time was an unripe time. It could not happen for just one single reason: because you were not open. And if you become obsessed with your unworthiness you will become closed again.
It is natural – but look at the compassion, look at the friendliness of existence. Look at its acceptance of you, whoever you are, wherever you are. It makes no difference between the saints and the sinners. God is available to everybody.
The second question:
Why do I go on forgetting myself?
It is an ancient habit; for many, many lives you have practiced it. You have put so much energy into it, into forgetting yourself. You remember money, you remember others, you remember the world. To remember all these things – all these things which Taoists call “the ten thousand and one things….” If you want to remember these ten thousand and one things, you will have to forget yourself, because your eyes will be focused on things, on people, on the world, and of course you will fall in the shadow.