And for the real path you need not go anywhere. You only need to be inside, to go inwards. That is the real India – your inner being.
India is not a geography, and if you go to see India you are wasting your time. India is an inner space; it is just a symbolic word for inner space. When you start traveling withinwards then you are moving towards India. So whomsoever reaches to himself becomes an Indian. Just by being born in India one does not become an Indian.
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Lately when I’m meditating at home I feel a choking sensation in my throat. All my energy goes to that point and breathing becomes difficult. What should I do if this sensation happens again?
You feel like dying?
Absolutely!
Nothing to worry about. You are just on the verge where one comes to face death.
One has to face it one day or other, and anything that goes deeply will bring you to death. If you love somebody very deeply, someday or other, love will bring you to face death. That is the fear of love. So people go on playing with love but never delve deeply into it. If you pray, one day or other, death will be there. So people go on imitating; they don’t pray. If you meditate the same will happen. Wherever you move deep you will have to pass the point of death, because only beyond death is life; that barrier has to be crossed.
So next time it happens to you just die! Don’t try to stop it, and don’t try to bring yourself out of it. Don’t start fighting with it. Relax and just repeat inside that you are willing to die. Welcome it and be receptive. Not even a slight effort. And once you allow it to happen, suddenly you will see that death has gone and the choking has disappeared; the energy is flowing and you have come to contact a new source of energy.
And this handkerchief (he passes her one of his handkerchiefs) you have to put around your neck where you feel(. This is to remind you that I am there, don’t be afraid. And it will go, don’t be worried. It has to be faced; death has to be faced to know life. Looks paradoxical, but that’s how life is.
Darkness has to be faced to know the morning, and the darker the night, the closer the morning. So pass through it, mm? Good.
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