9. Regard most earnestly your own heart.
For through your own heart
comes the one light which can illuminate life
and make it clear to your eyes.
Only one thing is more difficult to know –
your own heart.
Not until the bonds of personality be loosed
can that profound mystery of self begin to be seen.
Not till you stand aside from it,
will it in any way reveal itself to your understanding.
Then, and not till then, can you grasp and guide it.
Then, and not till then, can you use all its powers,
and devote them to a worthy service.
It is impossible to help others
till you have obtained some certainty of your own.
When you have learned the first twenty-one rules
and have entered the hall of learning
with your powers developed and senses unchained,
then you will find there is a fount within you
from which speech will arise.
These notes are written only for those
to whom I give my peace;
those who can read what I have written
with the inner as well as the outer sense.
Thousands and thousands of years of conditioning have made your mind so distorted that whatever you see is never the truth in its natural form but your own distorted version of it. So whatever conclusions your mind may reach, they will always lead you into illusion. Your life can only be transformed with the help of nature, and not by going against it – because you yourself are a creation of nature, so there is no way you can flow against it.
At whatever point in your nature you find yourself, from that very point you can grow. It is only through the laws of this same nature that you can transcend it as well. It is with the help of the ladder that man goes beyond it. It is through the support of the path that one can reach a destination and abandon the path. But no one can ever arrive at the destination by being against the path.
But logic can often be misleading. If I were to tell you, “This path will take you to your destination, but remember one thing: once you have reached your destination, you must abandon the path, because if you keep on clinging to it you will never be able to enter there” – you can also deduce from this that since the path has to be discarded anyway at the end, why not leave it from the very start? But if you do this you will never be able to reach your destination.
You have to take up the path – and discard it too. In the beginning you have to stay with it, and then ultimately you have to discard it.
But this can be misinterpreted in two ways. Firstly, why adopt a path that you will have to discard in the end? It seems logical to say, “Why take on something that you have to ultimately let go of?” But you will not be able to let go of something that you never took on in the first place. And without letting go of it you will never gain entry to the destination.