A moment comes when the lover would like to kill the beloved; and she was the goal of all his desires, of all his dreams, of all his poetry. How happily he was thinking of being with her, but it was only in the dreams. Reality is difficult – it destroys, shatters all dreams. Now he wants to get rid of her, and he will never learn anything. Sooner or later he will fall in love again with another woman, and the same thing will be repeated again. The same, with no difference. Again he will think that this is the most beautiful person. Again he will think that now there is no need to seek anybody else, now he is fulfilled, he has got the right person. And he will not be able to see that this is the same pattern. Within a few days again he is finished; again the search starts – somebody else.
Do you ever learn anything? Have you ever learned anything? And if you don’t learn, how can you become mature? And if you don’t learn and you repeat the vicious circle again and again, it becomes more and more solid within you, reaches to your very foundations. This is the state of ignorance.
If you start learning, then the circle breaks from somewhere. Then you start seeing the whole pattern of your mind, how it functions – first in love, then fed up, then again in love, then fed up: the circle revolves. And if you understand it, suddenly one day the very understanding of its nonsense brings you out of it. Nothing is to be done; you have just to understand, you have just to learn through life.
Move. Have as many experiences as possible, because experience is the only school. Move and don’t be afraid; but learn – just moving won’t do. You have been moving and traveling; that won’t help. If you just go on moving in an unconscious way things become more and more engraved. You become almost a robot, you become predictable; everything can be said about you. That is why astrology exists, not because anybody knows what stars say, not because anybody knows what is written in your hand, no. Astrology exists because you are predictable, you move in a vicious circle.
One young girl was showing her hand to a gypsy woman. The woman looked at her hand and said, “You have fallen in love”…the girl was surprised because she had been hiding the fact from everybody…“and the man you have fallen in love with is six feet three inches in height.” She was even more surprised: exactly! “…And he has black hair, long flowing black hair.” Now it was unbelievable! Then the gypsy girl said, “On his right thigh he has the small mark of some wound.”
It was too much, so she said, “How can you know these things through the hand?”
The gypsy said, “Who is knowing it through the hand? It is because of your wedding ring! That wedding ring was mine three years ago.”
You are predictable because you move in a certain pattern, and everybody moves in a certain pattern. If you say just anything to anybody, there is a fifty percent chance of its being right, and fifty percent is too much. Astrologers are just clever, nothing else, just cunning. They go on talking and just watching you, how you are feeling. They feel the right track just by your face, because you are nodding. You also have a very subtle nod when you say yes inside.
A doctor comes to check me, a very good man. But I need not ask him anything because he goes on nodding or saying no inside. If he checks my chest he nods. Then I say to myself, okay, no need to ask him – a very subtle nod. He will take my blood-pressure and he will nod but he is not aware.