He said, “No. Why should it be? Then there would be no problem. I would be at peace. But right now the examination is there and I desire the gold medal. So help me to be peaceful.”
Now, ambition is destroying his peace. He goes on clinging to his ambition – and still he desires peace. Peace in the service of ambition is impossible; peace in the service of ambition is contradictory. Ambition cannot be peaceful. The greed to succeed cannot be peaceful.
If you desire peace, desire peace for itself: don’t make it a means to something else. It cannot be made a means.
When this sutra says: Desire peace fervently, it means peace as an end, not peace as a means. No one desires means; ends are desired and, because of the ends, means are desired. But peace can never be made a means. All that is beautiful, all that is true, all that is good, all that is deep in existence cannot be made into a means – it is always the end. But we desire even God as a means. No one desires directly: we desire something else. Then the desire is false.
That’s what I mean when I say that no one desires peace unless he desires it for its own sake. You can attain it easily if it is desired as an end. Desire it for itself and it happens, because in the very desire for peace, ambition falls away; in the very desire for peace, anxiety disappears; in the very desire for peace, anguish disappears. But if you go on being ambitious – desiring success, desiring to be this or that, to be somebody – then peace will not happen to you. Then you will remain anxious, anxiety-ridden, tense. You will remain in anguish and whatever you do will not be of any help. So, be clear about it. If you want peace, desire it directly as an end. Then the very desire for peace transforms you.
Really, peace is natural. It is not something to be desired. You disturb it; it is already there. Peace is natural to you, it is your very being. You disturb it by ambition, you disturb it by greed, you disturb it by anger, you disturb it by violence. It is always there, but you have disturbed it.
Don’t disturb it! If you really desire it, you will not disturb it. Then you will feel it. To attain peace, one has to remove through negation. Just look at why you are not at peace. Why? Then, remove the cause. Find out why you are not at peace. If ambition is disturbing it, then remove the ambition and peace will happen. Peace is already there, you need not try for it. Just be aware of why you are disturbing it, and don’t disturb it, that’s all. And it will happen. That’s why I say that when peace is really desired it happens immediately. Not even for a single moment does one have to wait.
The twelfth sutra:
Desire possessions above all.