But questions were not allowed, so he somehow repressed the temptation. Once it happened, the bucket came up empty, and the second time and the third time – and the fourth time he forgot all about it and he said, “What are you doing?! This is no way to draw water from a well. Your bucket has no bottom.”
And the master said, “You have broken the rule. You were not supposed to ask anything – you were only supposed to watch. Get lost! I have nothing to do with you.”
The disciple thought, meditated over it the whole night, and felt, “There must have been something mysterious in it – I missed. I should have waited.”
He went back the next day, and asked to be forgiven. The master said, “I can forgive, but you will not be able. You could not resist a small thing. You could not control yourself for such a small thing. If it was absurd that was my problem, not your problem. How were you concerned with it? It was only a device. If in such a small thing you cannot remain non-argumentative…there are greater things which I am going to reveal to you, it will be impossible for you to remain non-argumentative. And Sufis don’t believe in argumentation. I am not interested at all in your questions and answering them. I have it! I can give it to you. But you will have to prepare yourself. And this is your preparation: become non-questioning, remain in a state of no doubt.”
Sufis create such situations. These situations help the disciple to mature. Once the maturity is there, the transmission becomes possible. The master has it, the disciple can also have it – but there are a few things that have to be dropped.
So the first thing about Sufism is: it is all alchemy – the science of the inner soul. It is an experimentation in consciousness. Only the result decides whether what you were doing was right or wrong. There is no other way of deciding it.
Philosophies go on moving in circles – they never lead you anywhere. Sufism is tired of philosophies. In fact, all great mystics are tired of philosophies. It is because of the mire of the philosophies and the confusion of the philosophies that people are debarred from knowing that which is their birthright. God is not lost through your sins: God is lost through your so-called knowledge.