When I hear you say that you are only here for us, I feel such an urgency arising in me, such an urge to move deep inside beyond all my little piddly trips and limitations. And yet inside, realizing such a deep helplessness…. Is there any secret or short cut, so I don’t miss?
The path that leads to your innermost being makes you feel more and more a tremendous urgency as you come closer to the center of your being. The farther away you are from yourself, the less is the magnetic pull of your being. It is a simple scientific fact.
As you come closer to the magnetic field, you become more and more aware of a tremendous urgency. Something is going to happen, something that is going to transform you completely, something for which you have been waiting for many, many lives, something that…you are not even aware what to call it. This is one part of the feeling of urgency.
The second part is that the closer you are to realization…a deep fear arises: will you be able to make it? When you were far away there was no question of missing. You were certain that you had missed it, there was a certain certainty. But as you come closer to the peak, a human fear arises: are you going to make it in such a short time, with this such small energy of yours?
And as you see the peak, you also can see that your problems are so trivial, your pleasures are also very trivial, your whole life is childish. Your fights, your friendships, your love affairs seem to be so small and so stupid that you want to get out of them as quickly as possible.
Before, you were never in such an urgency to get out of them, because you had never realized what your potential is, to what heights you are entitled, so you went on playing with toys. But now that a vision has arisen and is becoming more and more clear, you can see all your involvements, commitments, relationships – everything – is so small compared to your inner consciousness.
And those small things have been clinging to you for many lives. They are parasites; they are not going to leave you easily, because to leave you means certain death. It is your blood they thrive on. And the moment you realize that these small things are preventing you…such small things that I am reminded of a beautiful story that Gautam Buddha used to tell his disciples. It is a strange story and perhaps no Buddhist has ever commented on it because only a buddha can comment on it, not a Buddhist; only a man of absolute awareness can see what Buddha was trying to say through this small story.