He started walking like a woman, speaking like a woman, his voice changed. And when the menstrual period started, then the disciples became really afraid. They said, “We have lost him. How can we get him back?” They tried to persuade him, but until six months was up, he was not going to change his path. They said, “This path is dangerous. We don’t think that these breasts and this period are going to disappear even after six months. Your whole life you will be a laughingstock – and we are going to be laughingstocks because we are your disciples.”
It took almost six months after he stopped for the change to take place again. Slowly, slowly, he became a man again – before that he had become a woman. Such a deep psychological projection…. It is through such projections that people are experiencing Krishna, Jesus, Buddha – and when they experience it, they see it.
And if you say to them that it is only an illusion, how can they believe you? Their illusion looks more real than you are. Mind has a capacity to project anything and make it appear almost real; or sometimes, if the mind is very powerful, even more than real.
But my path is not the path of imagination: It is the path that does not use the mind at all.
Imagination and projection and hallucination and illusion – they are all parts of the mind. My simple approach is transcendence of mind; so only when you start seeing absolute nothingness, utter silence, can you see that I am very close by.
In that silence, you have heard me; in that nothingness, you have seen me. But if you see something, if you hear something, then it is your imagination – you have fallen from the beyond, back into the mind.
Only one thing has to be remembered: the mind is the world – and going beyond the mind is the beginning of God.