And certainly nobody ever taught his philosophy to anybody else. Once he was dead, people were relieved that a great harassment…because he was asking questions which you cannot answer. It is not that he knows the answer, he is simply pointing out to you that there is no answer.
Unanswerable existence has made it possible for millions of priests to exploit you because they give you a sense of direction. They give you the feeling that you are needed by God, that you are created by God; that you are not unnecessary, that you are here to fulfill a certain destiny.
God is absolutely necessary for the priests and their profession, and God is absolutely necessary for others. It is not an authentic answer but something is better than nothing: “God has created you.”
And have you ever looked at your face in the mirror? Can you see any reason why he should create you? What kind of revenge is he taking? And he has not only created you, he has created your wife, your children, all kinds of nonsense. And still you have to worship him! If you don’t worship him, he will throw you into hell.
Strange. We have never asked to be created in the first place. We have never asked that we should be allowed to live. He has created all kinds of desires and longings, greed, jealousy – he is responsible for all that – but you will suffer. He has given you sexuality, and the priest goes on teaching you celibacy. Strange. And the priest is the representative of God – he should teach sexuality, if he is really a representative.
If you look around, except me nobody is a real representative of God.
You are teaching celibacy – strange – and still you believe in God? And I don’t believe in God; still I am the only representative for the simple reason that my understanding is, there is no reason to ask why you are in existence.
You simply are.
I am, and nobody can ask me why. Even I cannot ask why I am, I simply find myself – I am. It is not a question….
There used to be a great wise man in India, Raman Maharshi, whose whole teaching was, “Ask yourself: Who am I? Who am I?” How stupid is the very idea! You are, that’s all. The question of “who” does not arise.
If you ask too much, you will say, “I am Niskriya.” Deeper than that, there is nobody: you have reached the bottom level of existence.
I don’t teach you to ask yourself “Who am I?” Are you mad or something? You are yourself, I am myself – everything is clear, there is no confusion. I have never seen anybody confused about identity, who he is. Certainly you know who you are – otherwise, how will you recognize your wife?
Next time you see her you try: be at a loss… “Who is this woman and what is she doing here?” But you recognize her, you recognize your kids.