But he won’t listen. He cannot understand this new phenomenon: a new kind of relationship between the master and the disciple, the relationship which is not a relationship of dependence of any kind.
You are not clingers to me, you are not enslaved by me. My effort here is to help you to be free, to be totally free. I am included in that freedom. You have to be free of all, and I am included in that all. And if you are still with me it is not because you are dependent on me; it is because you are grateful for such a freedom. Who will not love a relationship which is basically rooted in freedom?
Relationship becomes ugly when it is not allowing you to be free, when it encages you, when it cuts your wings, when it chains your soul, when it does not allow you to be yourself. I am not imposing any rule on you, I am not forcing any discipline on you. My only message is of love, freedom and awareness.
But Krishnamurti was utterly deaf.
Amrito writes to me that “I came out with a headache.” That is natural – Krishnamurti himself suffers from headaches! For fifty years continuously he has suffered from headaches, severe headaches, not ordinary; for days they continue. Sometimes they become so serious that he wants to hit his head against the wall!
And the reason is that he has dropped everything – as you say – but now a new attachment has arisen in him, the attachment to non-attachment, clinging to non-clinging. He has attained to the state of no-mind, but he has not been able to drop that idea of no-mind.
And it is not going to help if you drop the idea of no-mind and then you become attached to no no-mind. It is the same game! It goes on becoming more and more subtle, and the more subtle it is the more dangerous, because you will not be able to see it. It will become so deep inside you that your consciousness will not be able to reach it. It will poison your very source.
You tell me: “I have dropped all my attachments…”
Who has told you to drop all your attachments? The vicious circle starts there, in the dropping. Then you become attached to the idea of dropping. Then a new ego arises: “I have dropped all attachments.” And suddenly you can see, and it is good that you can see, that “Now I am becoming attached to this idea. What to do now?” You can drop even this idea, and then you will feel even more happy, more proud. “Look!” You will thank yourself: “See! You have done the miracle. You have dropped even the idea of non-attachment.” But now again it has come from the back door.
You ask me: “How should we go beyond this vicious circle?”