The question is significant, with many implications. First, when you are feeling good, radiant, nothing touches you, nothing affects you. That means nothing really ever affects you. It is just that you are missing your radiance, you are missing your awareness, your aloofness. So rather than becoming too much obsessed with a negative thing, regression into childhood, hiding in a corner, not wanting to come out – and then thinking how to face it, how to drop it – don’t concentrate on it.
When you know moments in which you are not touched by anything, then concentrate on the positive, spread that radiance, that aloofness, that awareness, so that you are covered with it more. The other will disappear on its own accord. You need not even bother about it.
This is something of the basics in spiritual growth: if you get bothered about something then some very small thing starts looking very big. You have a small wound, and you start playing with the wound, and you don’t allow it to heal – and you want that the wound should be healed. But touching the wound again and again, and remaining concentrated on the wound is not going to heal it. Forget all about it. The body has its own wisdom; it will heal it. Don’t interfere in the body’s way.
The mind has its own way. This regression into childhood is a problem of the mind, and the radiance you feel is an experience of your being. Remember the higher. Be filled more and more with the higher so that the lower disappears on its own accord, rather than getting concerned with the lower. In those concerns the higher will not appear, and you will find the lower becoming more and more strong.
The very idea that you want to drop it is dangerous, because whenever you want to drop something, that means you are very much attached to it. If somebody comes to his door every morning, after collecting all the junk cleaning the house, and shouts to the neighbor, “I want to throw it. I really want to throw it….” And the person is holding tight to all that junk and shouting, “I want to throw it. I really want to drop it.” Nobody is preventing. Nobody is concerned. It is junk. There is no need to make so much fuss about it, simply drop it.
But you can simply drop it only if you are at a higher stage. Then only can you see it is junk. If you are in the stage itself, you cannot drop it. You can think…. And remember, the thinking, “I want to drop it,” is really a way of protecting it: to think, “I don’t want it.” The more fanatically you shout that you want to drop it shows how deeply you are entrenched in it.
There is no question of dropping anything.
My understanding is, rather than dropping anything, why not move away? These are two different things.
You are on a rung of the ladder. You want to drop it, and you are standing on it. You will fall flat if you drop it. The only way to drop it is move ahead to a higher rung, and the lower is no more effective. The farther you go from the lower, it is disappearing in the darkness.
So always remember, never concentrate on the negative. But all the religions have been teaching people negative things. They are responsible for humanity’s misery and the stoppage of evolution.