I have heard about a man who was brought to a psychoanalyst because his family was tired, his friends were tired…he had taken a vow of celibacy, but he was continually talking in roundabout ways about sex. And the easiest way for such people is to condemn sex – that is their only joy in life. The whole day he was condemning everything. The psychoanalyst listened to him and he said, “Wait, I will draw a few figures and you tell me what they remind you of.”
He drew a line on the paper, and the man closed his eyes; he said, “Don’t do it, don’t do that! It is pure sex and nothing else.”
The psychologist said, “It is pure sex? I will draw another thing”…he drew a triangle.
The man simply covered his eyes with both hands and he said, “You will kill me! You are reminding me of such things…I am a religious monk, and if I go to hell you will be responsible. Are you a psychologist or a psychopath? You seem to be neurotic. And my friends and family, those idiots, have brought me to you for treatment! You need treatment; I can treat you.”
The psychologist said, “Just one more figure.”
But before he could draw the figure, through the window they saw that a camel was passing by on the road. So he said, “Forget the figure, you just look outside; a camel is passing – what does it remind you of?”
And the man jumped on the psychoanalyst, hitting him hard and said, “You idiot! You will destroy my whole religion. That thing is pure sex! I never look at camels – sex, and ugly sex – they harass me in my dreams, and they do such ugly things that I would rather remain awake the whole night than go to sleep and see the camels doing ugly things. From drawing lines, you suddenly went to the ultimate in obscenity.”
All the religions of the world, with good intentions, have created a very crazy and pathological world because they had no idea how the mind functions: you try to repress anything and you will become obsessed by it. It does not matter what it is.
You have laughed at this man because those were just lines and triangles, geometric figures, having nothing to do with sex. You try – and you will not find yourself in a different position.
Just don’t think of three. Take a vow: that “I will not think of three.” Whatever happens, three is renounced – you have become a celibate as far as three is concerned – and from that moment you will be tortured by three. Wherever you look, you will be surprised: before you also used to see these things, but you had never thought that they were three. In some way you will work it out so that everything turns out to be three. It is you, who without understanding a simple mind-process…
Repression is creating obsession. And when you repress vital things like sex, when you repress things which you feel are pleasant… Nobody represses painful things. Have you heard of anybody repressing headaches, heart failures, cancer? Strange world – if you want to be a great saint, renounce all these things. “I renounce headaches, I renounce tuberculosis.”