All believers doubt, hence they are so afraid of losing their trust. Their trust is poor, their trust is impotent. Hindus are afraid of reading the scriptures of the Buddhists, Buddhists are afraid of reading the scriptures of the Christians, Christians are afraid of reading the scriptures of other religions. The atheist is afraid to listen to the mystic, the theist is afraid of listening to the atheist. From where does all this fear come? Not from the other: it comes from your unconscious. You know perfectly well – how can you avoid knowing it? You may like to forget, but you cannot – it is there! Vaguely you always feel it, the doubt is there, and anybody can provoke it. It may have become dormant, it can become active again; hence the fear of listening to something that goes against your belief.
All believers live with closed eyes and closed ears and closed hearts – they have to, because the moment they open their eyes there is fear. Who knows what they are going to see? It may affect their belief. They cannot listen, they cannot afford to listen, because something may go deep into the unconscious and the unconscious may be stirred. And it is with great difficulty that they have been able to control it. But this controlled doubt, this repressed doubt, is going to take vengeance, it is going to take revenge sooner or later. It will wait for an opportunity to assert itself. And it is growing stronger and stronger inside you. Soon it will throw off your conscious belief systems. That’s why it is so easy to change people from Hindus to Mohammedans, from Mohammedans to Christians, from Christians to Hindus – it is so easy.
Before the Russian revolution, just sixty years ago, the whole of Russia was religious – in fact it was one of the most religious countries. Then what happened? Just the revolution! The Communists came in power, and within ten years all that religiousness evaporated. People became atheistic because now they were taught in the schools, colleges, universities, everywhere, that there was no God, that there was no soul.
They used to believe in God, now they started believing in no-God! They used to believe before, they are still believing. Before doubt was repressed, now trust is repressed. Sooner or later Russia is going to go through another revolution – when trust will come up again and doubt will be thrown back into the unconscious. But it is all the same. You are moving in circles.
In India, you are great religious people. It is all rubbish. Your so-called religion is nothing but repressed doubt. And that is so in other countries too.
This is not the way of inner transformation – repression is never the way of revolution. Understanding, not repression: try to understand your doubt, try to understand your trust; try to understand your no, and try to understand your yes, and then you will see they are not separate, they are inseparable. What meaning can yes have if the word no disappears from languages? What meaning can no have if you don’t know anything about yes?
They are bound together, married together, they cannot be divorced. But there is a transcendence. There is no need to divorce them, there is no need to separate them – don’t try the impossible. Go beyond. Just watch both.