An artist from Berlin is up first.
I think some new things are starting in me, but I have not started(.
Start! It is always difficult to start anything new, because the mind always tries to postpone. With the old, mind fits perfectly. With the new, there is a certain uneasiness. But don’t postpone.
If you feel that something new is coming, that you would like to do something new, do it – because only by doing it will it settle in your being. In fact only by doing do we know who we are, and doing reveals your being. By dancing you come to know that you are a dancer – there is no other way to know. If you never dance you will never come to know that you are a dancer; you will miss that dimension.
Doing is always lesser than the being. As far as being is concerned you are infinite, you are all. But as far as doing is concerned, there will be a limitation. You will have to choose to do something and choose not to do something else.
You are a born painter; that is your natural flow. So if something is coming up new and fresh, you may have some hesitation because you are a well-known painter – your name, your identity, your past, the fixed routine – and that can become an obstacle.
Sometimes to become famous is very dangerous, because then you cannot play with the new. You become afraid. To become famous means that now you have too much invested in the past. Always remain an amateur, never become an expert. Always go on playing with the new and let your life remain a fun, and not a serious thing. Serious people are dead before their death.
So start immediately and don’t waste time, whatever it is – because you cannot know unless you do.
It is just like a woman carrying a child in the womb. Unless the child is born she will never be able to know who the child is – whether a boy or a girl, beautiful or ugly. There is no way to know. You can feel, a woman can feel, that something is in the womb alive and kicking, but who is there nobody knows. Not even the mother can know.
Even an artist never knows what is going to be born. When it is born, only then you see. Then you recognize retrospectively that yes, you recognize the kick of it, a very vague feeling about it – but it was all in a deep mist.
So you start working, mm? I was waiting for it! As you start meditating, soon something will come up; it is surfacing.
I am not sure if in Germany I can change my artist name. I will do it, I want to do it, but the galleries will say that I can’t.