Rabia said, “Okay. Just to satisfy you, I am searching for my needle, I have lost my needle.”
They started helping her – but immediately they became aware of the fact that the road is very big and a needle is a very tiny thing. So they asked Rabia, “Please tell us where you lost it – the exact, precise place. Otherwise it is difficult. The road is big and we can go on searching and searching forever. Where did you lose it?”
Rabia said, “Again you ask an irrelevant question. How is it concerned with my search?”
They stopped. They said, “You have certainly gone crazy!”
Rabia said, “Okay. Just to satisfy you, I have lost it in my house.”
They laughed, they asked, “Then why are you searching here?”
And Rabia is reported to have said, “Because here there is light and there is no light inside.”
The sun was setting and there was a little light still left on the road.
This parable is very significant. Have you ever asked yourself what you are searching for? Have you ever made it a point of deep meditation to know what you are searching? No. Even if in some vague moment, dreamy moment, you have some inkling of what you are searching for, it is never precise, it is never exact. You have not yet defined it. If you try to define it, the more it becomes defined the more you will feel that there is no need to search for it. The search can continue only in a state of vagueness, in a state of dream; when things are not clear you simply go on searching, pulled by some inner urge, pushed by some inner urgency. One thing you do know: you need to search. This is an inner need. But you don’t know what you are seeking.
And unless you know what you are seeking, how can you find it? It is vague – you think it is in money, power, prestige, respectability. But then you see people who are respectable, people who are powerful – they are also seeking. Then you see people who are tremendously rich – they are also seeking. To the very end of their life they are seeking. So richness is not going to help, power is not going to help. The search continues in spite of what you have.
The search must be for something else. These names, these labels – money, power, prestige – these are just to satisfy your mind. They are just to help you feel that you are searching for something. That something is still undefined, a very vague feeling.