You are the kingdom of heaven, you are like a mustard seed. Be ready to die, prepare for your death. Of course there will be trembling and fear and apprehension. The jump is going to be difficult. Many times you may come back, many times you will go to the very brink and turn back and escape, because there is an abyss. The seed can know only the abyss, the seed cannot know the tree. There is no way that the seed can witness the sprouting tree; there is no way. The seed has to die and trust in the unknown, that it will happen.
If you are ready to die, it happens. Go and sow seeds in the ground; when the tree has come dig the ground again and see where the seed is. It will have disappeared, it will not be there. Go and dig in a Buddha, in a Jesus, you will not find the man, the seed. This is the meaning of Jesus being the son of God, no longer the son of Joseph the carpenter; because the seed came from Joseph the carpenter and Mary, but now the seed has disappeared, the shell has disappeared. This tree never came from the visible, it is from the invisible.
Look at Jesus: the seed is no longer there, only godliness is there. Be ready to die so that you can be reborn. Drop the mind, the body, the ego, the identity. Suddenly you will find that something new is growing within you: you have become a womb, you are pregnant. And to be spiritually pregnant is the peak of creation, because you are creating yourself through it. Nothing is comparable to it. You may create a great painting or a great sculpture, but nothing is to be compared with when you create yourself, when you self-create yourself.
…but when it falls on the tilled earth…
Be ready to die. But before you are ready to take the jump, become the tilled earth: become a disciple, become a learner, become humble, become as if you are not. Soon you really will not be; but get ready for it, behave as if you are not. Then:
…it produces a large tree and becomes shelter for all the birds of heaven.
It has always been happening so. You are here near me; my seed is dead; that is why you are here. It is not because of you that you are here, it is because of me that you are here. But to say “because of me” is not okay because there is no me; the seed has disappeared and now it is just a tree. And if you get a glimpse of your own possibility through me, the work is done.
The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard seed…
You are the seeds, you are the possibility of that kingdom. Get ready to die, because that is the only way to be reborn.
Enough for today.