The twenty-first saying:
If you bring forth that within yourselves, that which you have will save you. If you do not have that within yourselves, that which you do not have will kill you.
Let him who seeks, not cease seeking until he finds.
And when he finds he will be troubled, he will marvel, and he will reign over all.
And he said: Whoever finds explanation of these words will not taste death.
The search is for oneself. Whatsoever you seek, deep down you are seeking yourself in it. That’s why the whole outward search proves ultimately futile. You may be seeking wealth, but you are seeking yourself. When you attain to wealth then you will realize the futility of it; wealth is attained but you remain unfulfilled. It was not wealth that you were seeking at all, the direction was wrong: you chose to move further away from yourself, and you wanted to seek yourself.
What exactly is a man seeking through wealth? He is seeking life through wealth, more life, abundant life. The mind says, “Without wealth how can you live?” The mind says, “Without wealth how can you be secure?” The mind says, “Without wealth how will you protect yourself against death?” Wealth is a protection against death; the search is for life. But when you attain wealth, suddenly it is revealed that wealth cannot protect you. And if wealth cannot protect you against death, how can it give you more and abundant life? No, you were seeking in a wrong direction.
Another man is seeking power, prestige. What is he seeking? He is seeking to be omnipotent, he is seeking to be so powerful that death cannot destroy him. But that is deep down, he is not even aware of it. When he attains to power, then the poverty will be revealed.
Hence the paradox that whenever you succeed in this world, you feel ultimate failure: I say again and again that nothing fails like success. If you don’t succeed, then the illusion can be maintained, then you think, “Someday or other I will succeed and I will attain.” But if you succeed, how can you maintain the illusion anymore? You have succeeded, and the inner emptiness remains the same. Rather, on the contrary, now you can feel it more against the contrast: the wealth is there all around you, and within, the poverty; light is there all around you, and within, darkness; life is all around you, and within, death. That’s why whenever a society becomes affluent, rich, religion suddenly becomes meaningful.