Religion is nothing but attaining to such sensitive awareness that all is transformed into incredible beauty. Beauty is godliness.
The second question:
The other day, soon after I arrived, the battle began between sex and silence, relationship and aloneness. I felt at the time that a synthesis was impossible. It was as if I had to choose one or the other, and that either way I would miss out. It seemed at the time possible to go straight to the sky without going through the earth.
This has been one of the greatest problems down the ages: meditation and love, aloneness and relationship, sex and silence. Only the names are different, the problem is one. And down the ages, man has suffered much because the problem has not been understood rightly; people have chosen.
Those who have chosen relationship are called the worldly, and those who have chosen aloneness are called the monks, the otherworldly. But both suffer because they remain half, and to be half is to be miserable. To be whole is to be healthy, happy; to be whole is to be perfect. To remain half is miserable because the other half goes on sabotaging, the other half goes on preparing to take revenge. The other half can never be destroyed because it is your other half. It is an essential part of you; it is not something accidental that you can discard.
It is like a mountain deciding that, “I will not have any valleys around me.” Now, without the valleys, the mountain cannot be. The valleys are part of the mountain’s being; the mountain cannot exist without the valleys. They are complementary to each other. If the mountain chooses to be without valleys, there will no longer be any mountain. If the valley chooses to be without the mountain, there will be no valley either or you will become a pretender. The mountain will pretend that there is no valley, but the valley is there; you can hide the valley, you can drown it deep into your unconscious, but it remains, it persists, it is existential, there is no way to destroy it. In fact, mountain/valley are one thing, so are love and meditation, so are relationship and aloneness. The mountain of aloneness rises only in the valleys of relationship.