But going back is not possible. How can a young man become a child again? And how can an old man become a young man again? That’s not possible – even if some day it becomes feasible that science helps your body to become biologically young again. That’s possible, because man is very cunning, and it can deceive the cells of the body. It can give them a new program and they can regress; but your mind will remain old. Your body may become young, but how can you become young? All that you have experienced will be with you. It cannot be thrown back.
One cannot regress. The shore that is left is left forever. You cannot become an animal again. It is better to drop that appeal and infatuation of going back. The sooner you drop it, the better. Man enjoys things which give him a feeling of the past, of animal-hood. That’s why sex has so much appeal. That’s why people become food addicts, go on eating, obsessed with food. That’s why greed, anger, jealousy, hate have appeal: they belong to the animal kingdom. There is the shore that you have left, the shore of the animal kingdom, and there is another shore that you have not yet reached – not even in your dreams – the kingdom of God. And between these two, you stand in the mind.
You cannot go back. It is difficult to move ahead because the past goes on pulling you and the future remains unknown, vague, like a mist. The other shore you cannot see; it is not visible. Not that it is very far away. The shore that you have left is visible. The other shore that you are approaching is invisible by its very nature – not that it is very far away. That’s why it is invisible. Even when you have attained to it, it will remain invisible. That is its nature.
The animal is too visible. Where is God? Has anybody ever seen God? – nobody. Because it is not a question of your seeing or not seeing. God is invisibility, the very un-knowability, the very incomprehensibility. Those who have attained also say they have not seen, and they have attained! – because God cannot be an object. It is the deepest depth of your own being. How can you see it?
The shore that you have left is in the outside world, and the shore that you are approaching is in the inside world. The shore that you have left was objective; the shore that you are approaching is subjective. It is the very subjectivity of your being. You cannot objectify it. You cannot see it. It is nothing which can be reduced to an object and seen. It is the seer, not the seen. It is the knower, not the known. It is you in your deepest core of being.
The mind cannot go back, and cannot comprehend where to go ahead. It remains in chaos, always uprooted, always moving, not knowing where, always ongoing. The mind is a search. When the goal is attained only then the search disappears.
Remember: look at the world; it is a cosmos. The sun rises every morning without fault, infallibly. And the night follows day, and again day follows night. In the night sky, millions and millions of stars move on their path. Seasons follow each other. If man is not there, where is chaos? Everything is as it should be: the ocean will go on roaring and the sky will go on again and again being filled by clouds and the rain will come, and the winter and the summer, and everything moves in a perfect wheel. There is no chaos anywhere except within you, because nature is settled wherever it is. Nature is not progressing anywhere; in nature there is no evolution. In God also there is no evolution. Nature is happy in its unconsciousness and God is blissful in his consciousness.