Psychologists say that only one part of the mind is conscious, nine parts are unconscious. How are these nine parts created? And what is contained in these nine parts of the unconscious? These are the noes that you have been saying. Yes has become your conscious, but it is only one tenth. And noes are being accumulated in the basement of your being, and they are gathering momentum every day and they are becoming bigger and bigger. Every day you go on repressing something; one day they will take revenge. Either you will become mad… If you are a sincere man then you will become mad. Remember, madness happens only to sincere people; hypocrites never go mad. If you are a sincere person, honest, either you will go mad or, if you are insincere, dishonest, you will become a hypocrite; you will say yes and you will follow with no.
There is a Jesus parable:
A father tells two of his sons to go to the field, for some work has to be done. The elder says, “Yes, father. I will go,” but never goes. The younger says, “No. I am not going,” but then starts feeling guilty and goes.
Now, Jesus asks, “Who is really obedient, the one who said yes and never went, or the one who said no and still went; who is obedient?”
If you only judge the words, then the first is obedient, but what kind of obedience is this? If you judge facts, then the second is obedient, although he had said no. But whether you say yes or you say no, you create a split. If you say no, you start feeling guilty, and the yes is there repressed and it wants to assert itself. That’s what guilt is all about. It you say yes, the no is there and the no asserts, and you start saying one thing and doing another. This is how hypocrisy is born. And both are pathological.
Surrender means neither yes nor no. You are not there to say yes or no. Surrender is a total act; yes and no are partial acts. Surrender means you dissolve, you say, “I am no more,” and not only do you say it, in deep love that’s how you feel, you are no more.
Two lovers become one: two bodies and one soul. The disciple and the master become one: two bodies and one soul. This is surrender. It is not that the disciple says yes to the master; the disciple is not there to say yes or no. The disciple simply does not exist; he has dropped the very idea of the ego, separation, so there is no question of obedience or disobedience.
A disciple is not obedient, remember, because he cannot be disobedient – the disciple simply is not. You can call it real obedience; if you love the word obedience, you can call it real obedience. But remember, it is neither obedience nor disobedience. There is nobody to say yes or no. The disciple is just emptiness.
I am all for surrender, because surrender is true obedience, non-dual obedience. You remain unsplit; you remain whole.
And anything that divides you is not good; anything that divides you is dangerous in the long run. Man has suffered very much because of this cultivated obedience, the idea of obedience. Down the ages you have been taught to obey. Obedience has been praised as one of the greatest values. In fact, Christianity thinks this is the ultimate value.