You are looking at a film, an erotic film: your sex is aroused. Your body is ready to explode in a sexual experience, but you are just seeing a film, just sitting in your chair – and your body is ready for a sexual act. And the film will go on accelerating, it will go on pushing you. You are aroused, and you cannot do anything. The body is ready to do something and the situation is not. A gap is created. You begin to feel yourself different, and there is a barrier between you and your body. Because of that barrier and because of this constant arousal and suppression simultaneously, this acceleration and braking simultaneously, this constant contradiction in your existence, you are diseased.
Either fall back, be an animal…which is impossible. Then you will be whole and healthy. This is a strange fact: animals are not ill in their natural state, but put them in a zoo and they begin to imitate human diseases. No animal is homosexual in its natural surrounding and state. Put animals into a zoo and they begin to behave absurdly – they begin to behave homosexually. No animal goes insane naturally, but in a zoo animals go mad.
It has never been reported in the whole history of human understanding that any animal ever committed suicide, but in a zoo animals commit suicide. This is strange, but not strange really, because the moment man begins to force animals into a life which is not natural, they become divided inside. A division is created, a gap is created, the wholeness is lost.
And man is divided. Man is born divided. So what to do? How not to create this gap and how to bring awareness to every cell of the body, to every nook and corner of your being? How to bring awareness? That’s the only problem for all religions, for all yoga, and for all systems of enlightenment: how to bring consciousness to your total being so that nothing is unconscious.
Many methods have been tried, many methods are possible, so I will talk about some methods for how even the very cells of your body can become aware. And unless you as a total being become aware, you cannot be in bliss, you cannot be at peace. You will continue to be a madhouse.
Each cell of your body affects you. It has its own working, it has its own learning, its own conditioning. The moment you start, the cell takes over and begins to behave in its own way. Then you are disturbed: “What is happening? I never intended this. I never thought about this.” And you are right! Your desires may have been completely different. But once you give your cells, your body, something to do, it is going to do it in its own way, in its own learned way. Because of this, scientists, particularly Russian scientists, think that we cannot change man unless we change the cells.
There is a school, a behavioristic school of psychologists, which thinks that Buddha is a failure, that Jesus is a failure: “They are bound to be failures. There is nothing strange in it, because without changing the very structure of the body, the chemical structure of the body, nothing can be changed.”
These behaviorists – Watson, Pavlov, Skinner – they say, “If Buddha is silent, it only means that somehow he has a different chemical constitution and nothing else. If he is silent, if peace surrounds him, if he is never disturbed, never angry, it only shows that somehow the chemicals are lacking which create disturbance, which create anger.”