Just as you come out of your house when it starts getting too cold inside, out into the sun, or when it becomes too hot outside you move inside into the cool shade…is there any opposition between the two! Do you need great effort to synthesize this coming out of the room and going back into the room? There is no question at all – you can simply walk in and out. It is your own house, it is your own garden! And the same feet and the same walk takes you out and in, only your direction is different. Sometimes you are facing inwards, sometimes you are facing outwards.
And one thing to be remembered: when you are capable of moving easily from the inner to the outer and from the outer to the inner you transcend duality, you are no more caught in duality.
That’s the whole message of the Mandukya Upanishad: transcendence of duality. And the transcendence cannot happen by choosing one of the two; that is not transcendence, that will be clinging.
You say: “Again you invite us
to shout the truth from the housetops.” Again and again I will do it, because I would like your silence to be a singing silence. Remember, even the silence has a song of its own. It may not be your song – let me emphasize: it may not be your song, in fact it cannot be your song – the silence has its own song. You may lose your song; it has to be lost, only then can the silence sing.
What you are feeling as creativity, passionate and intense, is still adulterated with your ego. That’s why silence looks empty. because in silence there will be no ego.
You say: “On the other side an empty space, a cool silence is calling me more and more gently, more and more seducing, more and more scary, because in this silence all the colors of my creativity fade away…” Creativity will not fade away – your creativity may fade away, and they are totally different phenomena. In fact, your creativity is not of much value. When you are no more there and a creativity arises which you cannot claim as yours, then something real has started happening; then it is the song of the silence.
You say: “Since I am here, creativity is becoming more intense and vast, and my song is becoming more and more full of colors and dance and grace.” It is still my song. Let it be just a song! Let it be just creativity, a dance without any dancer, a song without any singer, a creativity but without any creator. Then things are very simple. You can move from the peak of creativity easily, gracefully, into silence, and you will enjoy it and it will not be empty. It will be overflowing, it will be pregnant, not empty, because it will nourish you; it will nourish your sources of creativity.
Your songs will be born in your silence; they may not be expressed in your silence, but they will be born in your silence. And when the creative phase comes – which automatically comes, just as the day follows the night and the night is followed by the day…it will come. There is a balance: half the time you will be silent and half the time you will be creative. When the creativity comes you will know these songs were sown in your silence, your silence was pregnant with them.