Buddha is infinite even when he is in the body because he knows he is not the body. Buddha is infinite when he leaves the body. There is no difference for him: living in the body or leaving the body is the same. You live in a house, but you don’t think that you are the house. Exactly like that, an awakened consciousness lives in the body, uses the body – just as you use a car. You sit in the car, you drive the car, you know that you are not the car – you can get out of it any moment. You need not wait for an accident to happen when the car is destroyed to feel that you are not the car. And if you don’t know it when the car is there and you are in it, how are you going to know it when the car is not there? Just through the death of the body, you will not know that you are infinite. Either you are infinite herenow, or you will never be. Infinity is your nature.
The real problem is not the body. The body is not the culprit as the so-called religions have been telling you – “The body is the culprit!” The body is not the culprit at all. The body is utterly innocent and beautiful. The culprit is the mind, the mind is the devil. You will have to dissolve the mind, hence the urge, hence the purpose of all the methodologies that have been developed down the ages: Tao, Yoga, Tantra, Zen, Hassidism.
Become a river and then nothing is needed. That’s what The Secret of the Golden Flower says: Achieve inaction through action, achieve effortlessness through effort. But first comes the effort, the action – it will melt you – and then the river starts flowing. In that very flow it has reached the ocean.
The second question:
I find it almost impossible to surrender to the male ego. Instead I become competitive, resistant or frightened. Can you say something about this?
The ego is neither male nor female. The ego is simply the ego. The one who becomes resistant to the male ego is the female ego.
You are aware of the male ego; you are not aware of your own ego. Who is resistant to surrender? Become more aware of your own ego and then things will be easier. Everybody is aware of the ego of the other, but nothing can be done about the ego of the other. All that can be done is only with yourself.
You say, “I find it almost impossible to surrender to the male ego.” Who is this who finds it almost impossible? Find out! And then you will be surprised: ego is ego, it is neither male nor female. Don’t divide it. Egos have no sex, no gender; it is the same disease. If a woman has cancer, it is cancer; if a man has cancer, it is cancer. It is not male and female. Exactly like that is the ego: the cancer of the mind.
And who is telling you to surrender to the male ego? Surrender is never to the other. When two persons fall in love, both surrender to love, nobody surrenders to the other. If there is an effort from the other that you should surrender to him, avoid him – this is not love. Love never demands surrender. Surrender happens naturally in love. There is no demand for it.