When you heard, although I did not say it to you, “Don’t do it to me” you heard rightly. I was just going to say it, but seeing that you heard it, I did not say it. All these years it has haunted you that you heard it and I have not said it: was it your imagination or was I really saying something without saying it?
No, it was not your imagination. I was saying it without saying it. I say many things to you without saying them. I simply create the atmosphere by saying many other things in which you can hear the unsaid. This is because there are a few things which can only be whispered, not shouted. And there are a few things that cannot even be whispered but only indicated indirectly. Only then are they beautiful.
Recently it has started happening that as I begin to open my eyes first thing in the morning I can see a vision, like a scene from a movie – and that scene happens days after in reality, just like a repetition.
Before I arrived here in Mumbai, I had a vision of the Golden Manor Hotel – the setting, the garden, the people – and when I arrived here, it was exactly the same as my vision. I wrote you a letter about this earlier, but did not have the courage to deliver it. Now it has been happening often, and I don’t know if it is good or bad.
Also, when you were in Uruguay and I was in Brazil, I had the sudden compulsion to go to my room, to sit on the floor and close my eyes. I did so, and like a flash, I saw you sitting at a table, laughing joyously. I could only see the back of another man who seemed a little bit serious or sad. Then you saw me and invited me in, and the man turned his face to see me. He was beautiful, very beautiful The scene was so full of light! I’m sure he was not Jesus – the beard was different and the eyes were deeper and more direct. Hours later, the radio gave the news that Krishnamurti had died hours before.
Osho, from that day on, I was totally sure that you live on two levels simultaneously, and I don’t know on which level you are for most of the time during your daily life.
You answered Turiya that you don’t come into our dreams.
But isn’t it true that you are so close to the disciple that we are one with you all the time, not only in our dreams?
One very fundamental thing has to be understood: a dream and a vision look alike, but they are two totally different phenomena. A dream is a mind projection. It has no validity of its own. It is only a thought in picture form.
Small children cannot think in thoughts, but they can understand pictures; hence, in their books you will see big pictures, beautiful colors, and very little writing. Slowly, slowly, as the child grows up, the pictures go on becoming smaller and the writing in his books increases. Finally, when he is in the university, pictures disappear and only writing remains. You may not have inquired why this is so…