The unintelligent will become too much concerned about his unworthiness and will start denying those moments: “How can those moments happen when I am so unworthy? It must be my imagination, it must be a trick of the mind. I must be going crazy.” And you will become convinced by your own logic that those moments are not true. You have to prove them untrue because you are so focused on your unworthiness. If they are true, then you are not unworthy.
And your society has been teaching you that you are unworthy. You have been told that you are of no use, you are utterly worthless. You are nothing but dust – dust unto dust. You are more worthless than dirt: that’s what has been told to you in so many ways; it has become a deep-rooted idea in you. If you pay too much attention to it, the only possibility is that you will deny those moments.
I know many people who have denied when the mysterious has knocked on their doors, just because they cannot leave the idea of their unworthiness. Then the only possibility is to deny those moments, call them imaginary, hallucinations, dreams, deceptions; something must have gone wrong in your head, you are going berserk; forget all about them because they remind you of your unworthiness. Don’t become focused on it, be focused on the compassion of the divine.
That’s why all the religions emphasize: God is compassionate – rahim, rahman, “God is compassion.” This is just to give you an alternative gestalt so you become focused on his compassion, not on your unworthiness. You may be unworthy, that is irrelevant – but God is compassionate. You may be a sinner, that is irrelevant – God is compassionate. He gives for no reason at all; he is simply a giver, he knows only giving. And he does not give conditionally, he gives unconditionally.
Jesus tells a parable again and again.
A rich man called forth a few laborers to work in his garden in the morning. The fruits were becoming ripe and they had to be collected soon. But by the afternoon it was felt that the laborers were not enough; more were needed, so more laborers were called. By the evening it was felt that even those laborers were not enough; a few more were needed, and they were called. And when the third group of laborers went the sun was almost setting.
Then it was night, all the laborers were called, and the rich man gave exactly the same amount to everybody. Those who had come in the morning and those who had come in the afternoon and those who had just come and had not worked at all were also given the same amount of money. Naturally, the people who had been working the whole day in the hot sun complained; they were angry. They said, “This is unjust! These people have just come. They have not done anything at all, and they receive the same amount of money? And a few people have come in the middle of the day, they have done only half the work, and they also receive the same amount of money as we have received? This is unfair!”
The wealthy man laughed and he said, “Answer me one question: is what I have given to you not enough for the labor that you have done?”
They said, “It is more than enough, but what about the others?”